As a kid my mom always asked me why did I only remember the bad stuff and never anything good? She would also say to me "if you didn't have bad luck you would have no luck at all."
The answer to her question was... because the bad is what stands out to me and there is something about it that doesn't seem right.
My entire life seems to have been one negative obstacle after another after another.
1986 - (17 years old) - Car accident: rear-ended and pushed into the back of a truck. I was driving and my sister and two cousins where in the car too. I broke my foot in two places pushing on the brake so hard trying to stop us from being squished into the back of the truck. The hood of the car folded up right in front of our eyes. The car was totaled.
1990 - Had my purse stolen out of my car when I pulled into a gas station and had the hood popped on my car from car issues. I looked directly in the young man's eyes and he took off. I chased him down a back alley in hopes of getting my purse back. It had the only cash I had on me and ALL of my identity: SS Card, Birth Certificate Card, Drivers License, etc.
1995 - Two men tried to break into my apartment.
1996 - Witnessed a Murder/Suicide
1996 - Lost a job I really loved
1997 - 1998 - PTSD, Numbed out and couldn't feel
1999 - Car Repossessed with only one car payment left. The bank I had my loan through put a $3000 charge on my account saying I didn't have car insurance. Never knew they did this until months later. Finally one bank worker went over all my statements and told me about the charge. I proved that I did in fact have the car insurance. But this was after the fact. I did get my car back, but in trying to get to the city where my car had been taken I needed to take the train. But I didn't purchase my train ticket correctly and then ended up getting a "jumped the train" ticket to appear in court
1999 - Neighbor Shooting my cats with a pellet gun. One needing surgery to remove the bullet near his brain
I often wondered what in the world was going on in my life. Why was it falling apart? Why was it trying to take me out?
2000 - Left Miami, a place I called home for almost 13 years. Didn't want to leave but didn't know what else to do.
2001 - 2013 - Tried to regroup and keep going. Felt lost and disconnected (2006 - had an issue with right breast, was told it was nothing to worry about)
2014 - Started experiencing issues with my right breast. Had foreshadowing visions about my life and that I needed to take action.
2015 - Diagnosed with breast cancer
2016 - Diagnosed with recurrent breast cancer
2017 - Found another new tumor same breast (this one in the exact spot a botched biopsy had occurred.)
2019 - Diagnosed with an iffy but stable lymph node near arm pit of same side as the breast cancer
2023 - The cancer treatment I had been doing for 18 months ended up causing 8 serious side effects which caused more health issues and the treatment stopped working
Like I said, one bad thing after another after another after another. And there is more, but you get the idea.
Among the bad stuff over the years there was of course some good. I always had a creative and spiritual nature. Played the trumpet, illustrated and painted. I also loved anything about metaphysics. The love of the arts and the supernatural guided my path amongst all the chaos.
I also grew up in the church, as a Methodist, and loved all the teachings about Jesus and his healing ability.
Those few "anchors" as I call them saved me and helped to get me to where I am now...
WHOLE.
I dove into my art. I dove into my spiritual work. I went with what I had, what was a natural talent for me and let it all develop, unfold and guide me.
I did the inner work, the self-help work, took too many energy work classes to count, trained in healing modalities and the mind body spirit connection, seeked out healer after healer. Saw a psychotherapist, psychologist, and a counselor. Hired a: Palm Reader, Body Worker, Psychic, Naturopath, Traditional Chinese Medicine Doctor, Functional Medicine Doctor, Intuitive Medical Doctor, Cancer Coach and Chiropractor. Researched German New Medicine. Had and have Conventional Medicine Doctors. Have also worked with Spiritual and Intuitive Biz Coaches.
I've done ALL THE THINGS to help heal and explain my life, health and business.
I never gave up completely although at times I wanted to and felt I should.
I have been determined to figure it all out. Something was wrong and I was going to find out what it was and fix it.
Finally, now in 2025, I am at a point of understanding, insight and revelation as to what was really happening. I have come full circle. Hindsight is 20/20 after all. Right?
There are two points I want to mention:
1) Good souls will get attacked by evil forces. Darkness does NOT want us to win. If you are a sensitive, empath, healer, spiritual entrepreneur and biz owner or consider yourself a lightworker, starseed, or one of God's Holy Army fighting spiritual warfare etc more than likely you have experienced your own adversities and obstacles that have tried to take you out and have tried to keep you away from: your purpose, your fully embodied power, and from being able to do the good works you have come here to do.
The darkness does NOT want you to shine your light.
2) We do have Divine Access and support from God (Source/Creator) and the Holy Spirit to overcome absolutely anything that is thrown at us or trying to take us out.
We HAVE the authority!
Evil does NOT.
I have learned that:
1) My abilities are in fact gifts of the Holy Ghost
2) We can "kick out"... cast out evil spirits and attachments. These things rob us of who we really are. They distort us and our lives.
3) We can and should fully embody ourselves, our life and our light and fully be in our power. This is our divine right and the natural (original) template of who we were designed as.
You don't have to suffer.
You can get back on track.
You can overcome.
You can have a fruitful, abundant, healthy and flourishing life.
Love,
